Biggest Dreams, Pastel

Posted in Uncategorized on December 26, 2009 by melanieakabo





I am in a pretty good mood! 🙂 Right now, I’m in bed with an amazing, amazing new duvet (BRIIIIGHT: GREEN BLUE AND PURPLE COLORSSS), and a matching pillowcase for my pillow! ❤ SAY IT’S AWESOME.

I have a bird cage sitting next to my bed with a brand new male parakeet named Pastel! (Pictures SOON!) He is white and blue, mostly white, with pastel blue patches all over him. I already love this little guy, and I’ve only had him for less than a day even! o:

Life is slowly improving for me right now. (: My life would be ALMOST PERFECT if my bestie would get back to me about coming to visit. -.-

lol. But don’t let me get you down!
I also gottt.. $40 cash, $25 in one of those American Express giftcards, a brand new 30-colors box of pastels, new shirts, new pants, a supernice new journal, an adorable watch with sparkly penguins, and a sterling silver bracelet.


what about you guys? TELL ME!

On a side note, I have decided that my biggest dream is to be HAPPY. Not an invisible ninja…that’s my 2nd biggest dream. 😀

What did you guys get for Christmas???

What are YOUR biggest dreams??

I am SO looking forward to 2010!!! This year has been pretty rough, and the schoolyear started with a hard push, so many things to get used to (I changed, people changed). But I have high expectations for 2010

HAPPY CHRISTMAS EVERYBODY, AND MERRY NEW YEAR! I love you all! (In a sisterly-brotherly kinda way) Every single one of you reading this deserves a blessed and peaceful and happy holiday.

Good night! 🙂

Friend, Friendships

Posted in Uncategorized on December 20, 2009 by melanieakabo

So, hi guys. This might be a little sad post coming on, so forgive me beforehand.

I just read a really meaningful post on another blog (I’m not posting that blog for reasons I will keep to myself) and it’s gotten me thinking. They told their views on the words “friend” and “friendships” and their experiences with them. (And why they’re on a hiatus.. hiatus meaning break)

The poster and I are quite alike. Neither of us believe we have true friends, but we have had amazing friendships in the past, and hopefully the future. But they are gone for now.

What’s your definition for friend?

It’s hard to explain in my case. Yours?

Do you ever wonder why people do what they do?

Of course! Who doesn’t? I always wonder why people must hurt their animals, why they trash their beautiful parks/beaches, or why they hurt themselves/other people. It’s something that only they can explain, and I, fortunately, am mostly unable to explain it myself. I hope hardly any of you have the ability to explain. Or do you?

Why do you remember things that have happened to you in the past? Why don’t you? (Meaning, bad things.)

I remember them, yes. Mostly because I can’t forget the hurt I felt. It’s hard to, really. I’m sure everyone can agree. I dwell on the past. I shouldn’t, but I do. Sometimes, to keep myself from dwelling, I have to just clear my mind, do something to keep it occupied. What do you think?

Why did you take a break from something in the past? Why are you doing so?

I am trying to take a break from the internet (I’m failing, btw) because I need a break from the drama that happens on here. I already have enough to deal with in the real world. I do, don’t you dare say you don’t, often wish the world was all smiles and rainbows and butterflies. I bet you all have fantasized that, or even just had a single thought of it. I wish I could just take a break from the world, though. From the hurt, from the ‘friends,’ from everything. I wish I could just wander the streets all my life, where it rained everyday, and be totally carefree. That’s it. That’s the life. Being free. Of all feelings, of all hurt, of all people, of all everything.

I’m sorry if this brought any of you down. I just really wanted to post this. And I want to see your responses, too. Please, post in the comments your answers to these questions, I am eager to learn.


Posted in Uncategorized on December 13, 2009 by melanieakabo

Okay, so how many of you guys have seen The Blind Side yet???
I saw it the day after the New Moon premiere, and I’ve been meaning to post about it for ages k.


Who loved it like me???

I cried.

So much.


That movie.

Was beautiful.

Good Lord.



(Kay thanks I love you bye) XD

❤ lotsa hugs


Thank You MLIA!

Posted in Uncategorized on November 25, 2009 by melanieakabo

Have you guys her of Duh, who hasn’t. Because is so 1 month ago. 😀
I LOVE this one:
“Today, my friend dragged me to see New Moon. There were tons of ‘Team Edward’ and ‘Team Jacob’ supporters, which has to be the most pointless debate of all time. Out of nowhere, a guy dressed like the Phantom of the Opera ran through the crowds yelling “TEAM PHANTOM!” at the top of his lungs. I think he wins. MLIA”
even though the site is incorrect (these are not average stories) I love it. ❤

I think I need to team up with some of you POTO supporters and go raid a New Moon place like this.

lol okay so yes, things are getting better. Real better.. there's the occasional family/friends drama crap that you can't really ignore, but it's the way things go.
I got dumped recently, but that.. dfjs;lfkdjs;lfkjd;lkgjs;ldf will be sorry! Anyways, I got myself a new boyfriend.. err.. he just doesn't know it yet. 😀
Wish me luck! (;

Hope to be talking with you guys in the future!


Posted in Uncategorized on October 11, 2009 by melanieakabo

Yeap. I’m sick. 😦 And it just started getting a little cold.

Okay. -cools down- So I am definitely not done with my break yet, I have a long way to go, but I just wanted to fill you guys in. 🙂

My mom is taking a trip to Japan, so I’m stuck here with my brother and dad. And Spencer is visiting every so often. She’s been trying to persuade me to..
o.o nevermind.
But I’m okay! I’m finally starting to figure out (irl) who my /real/ friends are. I’m able to figure out who I should avoid, who’s just using me (for something I dunno), and stuff like that. That’s good..
And I think I am having anxiety issues. Nothing horrible, but I still want to talk to someone yet. Haven’t found the right person.

I’m just lonely, mostly.

Miss you guys. ❤

I’m sorry guys.

Posted in Uncategorized on September 3, 2009 by melanieakabo

I know. I’m not on that often anymore. Just when I get back. I think I might have to get away again. I’m sorry guys.

A lot… has been going on lately. Just.. a lot…and I think I need time off the computer. I’m getting addicted. In the bad way–nothing serious though. So don’t worry about me.

I just need to…center myself. Take some days to think. I don’t know how long it’ll be. Days… weeks… months. I know I’ve been gone for weeks already (a month maybe?) and I’m sorry you guys. I have missed you a lot. ;0; I really have.

I don’t know anything right now. I want to talk to someone–a professional, a therapist, a counselor, SOMEONE. But right when I need them, I’ve got no one to turn to. My friends will think I’m weak, and negative, and a complainer. My parents won’t GET IT, and my brother and sister….well. I don’t know. I doubt they’ll want to talk to me.
I’m sorry. I need to go for a bit. Center myself, like I said. Turn off my phone, not take any calls, just be alone for a while. I should’ve done this during summer. I just wasn’t thinking.

I’m sorry.
I’ll miss you.

New Books, New Ideas

Posted in Uncategorized on July 20, 2009 by melanieakabo

Haayyy, gaiz. I’m back from France! 😀 Miss me? Of course you did. XD ❤ I had a great time, I’ll make my next post about my trip and I’ll include some pics, too. 😛

Now to my real point. 😀 I have some new ideas in mind. From now on [I hope], I will be trying my best to pick a phrase out of each of my posts [or a word] and put it as my title. Then, whenever that word/phrase comes up, I will bold it. Cool idea, yeah?

Now for the new books. I recently finished reading The Prince of Tides and I can now say that it is one of my favorite books. It is an amazing story about a man named Tom Wingo’s horrible and troubling past, and the present of making himself a new man. I highly recommend this book to all readers, except for those who cannot stand abuse or racism. [Since Tom was raised in the south in the 1960’s (I think?) you can expect both of those things.] But I do mean, cannot STAND AT ALL. I hate both passionately, but not enough to keep me from reading the book. The Prince of Tides is also rather depressing, but I tend to like those kind of stories.

All the same, I think all of you should read it. I personally believe the ending is the best part. 🙂

I am now looking for a new book to read, since Harry Potter series is done, and I find Mysterious Benedict Society quite interesting. I found it looking on the B&N Recommends page on It says it is a great read for after Harry Potter, and all Harry Potter fans should find it at least pretty good. I plan to read it myself.

I also found Pride and Prejudice and Zombies. It’s been out for a while, and I think it’s time to finally read it. I will now provide you with the link and synopsis for each book I have listed. 🙂

The Prince of Tides


Synopsis: Pat Conroy’s dark novel exposes a terrible family secret behind recollected Carolina pastorale. The middleaged protagonist, with the help of a sympathetic female psychiatrist, confronts that repressed horror. The film was directed by Barbara Streisand and starred Streisand and Nick Nolte; the novel like all of Conroy’s work was a bestseller.

Annotation: [I believe it is best to include this as well.] Spanning 40 years, this is the story of turbulent Tom Wingo, his gifted and troubled twin sister Savannah, and the dark and violent past of the extraordinary family into which they were born.

Mysterious Benedict Society – Trenton Lee Stewart, Illustrator: Carson Ellis



ARE YOU A GIFTED CHILD Looking for special opportunities?
When this peculiar ad appears in the newspaper, dozens of children enroll to take a series of mysterious, mind-bending tests. (And you, dear listener, can test your wits right alongside them.) But in the end just four very special children will succeed. Their challenge: to go on a secret mission that only the most intelligent and resourceful
children could complete. To accomplish it they will have to go undercover at the Learning Institute for the Very Enlightened, where the only rule is that there are no rules.
As our heroes face physical and mental trials beyond their wildest imaginations, they have no choice but to turn to each other for support. But with their newfound friendship at stake, will they be able to pass the most important test of all?
Welcome to the mysterious benedict society.

Pride and Prejudice and Zombies – Jane Austen, Seth Grahame-Smith



“It is a truth universally acknowledged that a zombie in possession of brains must be in want of more brains.” So begins Pride and Prejudice and Zombies, an expanded edition of the beloved Jane Austen novel featuring all-new scenes of bone-crunching zombie mayhem. As our story opens, a mysterious plague has fallen upon the quiet English village of Meryton-and the dead are returning to life! Feisty heroine Elizabeth Bennet is determined to wipe out the zombie menace, but she’s soon distracted by the arrival of the haughty and arrogant Mr. Darcy. What ensues is a delightful comedy of manners with plenty of civilized sparring between the two young lovers-and even more violent sparring on the blood-soaked battlefield as Elizabeth wages war against hordes of flesh-eating undead. Can she vanquish the spawn of Satan? And overcome the social prejudices of the class-conscious landed gentry? Complete with romance, heartbreak, swordfights, cannibalism, and thousands of rotting corpses, Pride and Prejudice and Zombies transforms a masterpiece of world literature into something you’d actually want to read.

Thanks for reading. 🙂 ❤


Hallelujah… The World’s Greatest

Posted in Uncategorized on July 1, 2009 by melanieakabo

Okaaayyyy, I know this song has been around FOREVER, and that a ton of you have probably heard it 304857029834720485 times. But I finally really took a listen to this song, like really listened, and I love it so much. The girl is extremely talented and beautiful and amazing and has great taste in songs. ;O; LOVE the song. LOVE LOVE LOVE it! <333

So take a listen with me!:

About “The World’s Greatest.” Beautiful song, I love it, and I remember it from Spencer’s graduation ceremony when her class sang it. I took a listen to it as well, and I swear it almost changed my life completely. It just gave me real hope, I dunno. Beautiful.

Also take a listen:

Love them so much. ;O; <333

Thanks for reading.


PS: as you can see I forget how to post YouTube videos. Someone [Cord? Lemon?] remind me how in the comments?


Posted in Uncategorized on July 1, 2009 by melanieakabo

Has anyone else noticed the way these guys are dying? SRSLY!!! They’re dropping like friends!!! I loved MJ and Billy Mays, OMG!! Billy Mays = loudest and most amazing pitchman in the world. MJ = a total pop legend master and moonwalk creator, Farrah Fawcett = 62-year-old hottie FTW. [FTW = For the win.]
[Wow, who knew that you could incorporate math with dead celebrities. :P]
This is horrible! Check out for a lot of info about all 3 of their deaths. Or if you have any other website suggestions, I’ll add it to the post.

Who’s next?

Look At This.

Posted in Uncategorized on June 25, 2009 by melanieakabo


What do you think you see in this picture? First time I saw it, I thought I saw a really, really pretty girl.
Post what you think you see!! 😀

See the URL? Tokio Hotel is actually guy band from Germany. THAT is Bill, the lead singer of Tokio Hotel. HE is a guy.
And I do not think he is gay.
He is such a pretty boy. :3 XD